}- ❤ME AND YOU.

♥ Monday, June 30, 2008

friendship ar 4EVER.

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't,or saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess e more important things are the hardest things 2say.
Don't b afraid2tell someone you LOVE them.
If you do,they may breaks your heart.
If you don't,you may break theirs.
Have you ever decided not2become a couple bcos you were so afraid of losing what you alread had with a person?
Your heart decided whom it like,and who it's doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what2do.
It does it on it own.
When the last suspect it,or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted2LOVE someone with everything you had,but that other person was too afraid2let you..?
To many of us stay walled up bcos we're2afraid2care2much.
For fear that the other person does not care as much,or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feeling for someone bcos your fear of rejection?

ask yourself those ques and answer it.

im those lil ger eu c in e streets.
(8.26pm)

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♥ Saturday, June 28, 2008

Do eu felt tt eu wanted b sum1 else?
Do eu felt tt eu wanted change ur destiny?
Do eu hope tt thiings wiilx make a biigturn?
Do eu wanted b another eu wif beta life?
Do eu wanted a diff story of urlife NOW?

ii wanted so much liikx any 18yrs old ger out der2enjoy mylife2do lots of thiings ii liikx butt destiny play games wifmiie.
Ii LOST all e important thiings iin life wher everybody had.
Everybody enjoy their childhood memorial wif their parents yet my was a diff story iim leadiinx a life w/o dem imaginin how ii go through those painfully moment?

ii wanted b sum1else2lead a life liikx anybody out der butt ii cant.iim facing these world alone wif all tiis pain iin miie telx miie how shld ii overcome iit?
Ii want more LOVE from everybody more concern more care liikx e ger outder yet ii noe iim jus hoping2much iin tisworld of my.
bleedinx heart yet ii noe ii need2cure iit butt everythiinx came within miie.
Tis world leave miie no wher else2go cos all tis were e most painfully moment tt1culd go through alone.yet ii didn't hv a choice iin my OWN world.

ppl say destiny iis iin ur ownhand eu control iit nd eu rule iit butt tiis were jus crap ii cant control ii cant rule tis destiny of my cos dey beat miie down.dey mock at miie nd make miie criix dey make miie lost e will2carriix on mylife cos once iistart mylife ii noe iim gg breakdown anytime agaiin.yet iim stiilx holdinx on2iit stiilx tryiinx nd hoping thiings wiilx change butt stiilx iin remain e waiix ii NV wanted iit2b.

iis der a waiix out fer miie?
Iis der a waiix fer miie2change my destiny?
Iis der a waiix fer miie2gt out my life?
Can ii stop criixiinx nd stay stroniix?
Can ii turn my life arund nd re-start everythinx agaiin?
Can sum1telx miie wat shld ii do?

IIM SICK ND TIRED OF EVERYTHINX IIN LIFE,CAN II TAKE OVER UR PLACE?
Iim sorriix iim lost iin my world 4gv miie iif iim changiinx.

II WANT MY OWN WORLD.
(3.09pm)

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♥ Friday, June 27, 2008

Wanted2blog ytd butt was waiix2tired so didn't blog.hahas.pls excusemiie then.

btw onthurs wen2chalet meet baby at1030 at lrt then go2amk2meet myxzb at11 butt we reach waiix2early sowen2cheers2buy sweet.hahas.after meetiinxup wif myxzb nd jeremy wehead2 myxzb's parentsshop2hv ourlunch cos weneed2packlunch fer dem.reach herparentsshop arund 12plus nearly1 then had ourlunch tiilx 2plus after tt mommy(xiangjun)cor2ask kl2her buymed so iiacc her2e nearby 7-11to buymed when on ewaiix back der's tis 2piid man suddenly came nd tok2miie nd kl nd say wat td vhot ho then dunno wat nd wat butt ii dun evenbother2reply hiim la waste mybreath onli.idiot man.

anywaiix after lunch we head2downtown2look fer erest.reach downtown arund3plus after tt gt2leave baby le cos he need2go h cant stay wifmiie cos of e2piid fivth la dun allow others2come.argh........idiot.so nochoice lo.sorriix baby gt2leave eu alone le.
Reach der miie nd myxzb wen2look fer e block of echalet exactly iit's jus sonear by onli butt we took abiig turn la.hahas.toot lo.we reach le so does fivth,jiawei,mommy,ger,xh,aisyah nd ahbeng.once step iin dey were watch-iinx ahlong la sofunniix lo all laugh soloud butt then ii onli watch awhile nd iintend2go out cos suddenly nomood2watch dunno y so ask ger nd mommy acc miie out butt then dey dunwan so nvm la wenout alone lo butt then suddenly my xzb,mommy nd ger suddenly tag along.hahas.pretty touch tt my xzb acc miie.tkstks.love.wen2slack awhile then headback chalet agaiin.nth much la.
E food came at 5plus so does daddy nd mr.liu so erest of us exactly wen2e pit2hlp setup efire.so funniix la ahbeng nd daddy were liikx mad lo butt stiilx e same la dey start2play la so iiwas standiinx at e side laughiinx away.everythiinx was ready nd we start2cook those food slowlyslowly everybody came even mr.francis nd daddy ang.omg so miis hiim la.

anywaiix at arund8plus ger,kl nd miie wen upstair2prepare fer ltr club.everybody was pretty dress wif nice clothes nd makeup on iisn't iit.hahas.leave chalet at10.10pm2club wif kl,ger,cas,xh,elson nd miie.hahas.we took mrt der saw2malay man sitiinx besiide elson so we didn't bother abt iit butt after awhile we realise tt dey were tryiinx take ourpic wat a prevent iis iit.argh....so mommy,cas nd elson stand iinfront of us2protect us wow so swt of dem.tks.after alight we go look fer dxo when wereach gues wat der were onli3ppl iinside omg ii realiix nv expect thiings were so bad realiix nv expect.wat a letdown so ii wenout2cor baby2complain abt iit.nvm after tt we cab down2lunar cos der wan't any mrt or bus le sochoice we took cab down then.reach lunar thiings was even moreBAD.omg not bcos der were last then3ppl der were exactly 20ppl or even more butt then ppl der were not even ourage.omg butt nvm we stiilx dance la butt then ger was showiinx us ur BLACKFACE agaiin.omg realiix cant standher la.god stop ur blackface can.omg.sigh.so sian la 2plus we leave lunar exactly iiwante2slack arund butt then non of dem wante.then nvm lo we cab down cos der wasn't any bus or mrt so nvm reach chalet wante hv fun butt then nv super bored la so kl,cas nd miie wen downstair2chat after awhile e2piid fivth drunk somuch la.so was soso angriix tt ii scold her.craziix her.chat tiilx 4plus nearly5then wen upstair sumthiinx bad happen dunwan say le.skip e whole thiings la.everybody fall aslp onli kl nd miie were siting outside tokiinx nd she was liikx fallinx aslp la stiilx dunwan go orhorh so faste briinx her iin2 e room nd let her slp then ii wenout cos iif iim gg slp then nobody gg wake dem up at11so nochoice la.didn't slept e wholenite tt make miie soso tired la.after tt elson oso didn't slp so he ask whether wan go shopshop not so anythiinx la seen iit's stiilx early2wake dem up so onli we2go shop lo wen der2buy thiings2bite cos feeliinx hungry oread.hahas.after awhile my xzb cor nd then come look fer us after shoping awhile onli wehead back cos baby reach-iinx soon.hahas.so fastefaste goback2meet baby.reach outside waiit fer baby saw baby came faste go2wards hiim nd hug hiim realiix miis hiim sosomuch la.so faste goback 2room nd ask everybody wakeup nd start2clean up nd gt2book out.leave chalet at11plus everybody wen h onli ahbeng,elson,jeremy,kl,baby nd ii wen2whitesand2hv lunch cos stiilx feeliinx hungry.hahas.after eatiinx go h arund 1.once bored e mrt ii fall aslp nd wokeup afew tiimes.when jeremy nd kl alight baby fall aslp wif miie agaiin nd we exactly overslept2boonlay area.hahas.then hv2head back2je nd change train agaiin ii was super tired la cos haven slp.reach h arund 3faste pongpong nd fall aslp at3.45 slept though e wholenite sotired lo wakeup at10 nd eat breakfast nd watchtv.hahas.sotired lo butt realiix miis those daes atchalet.meet up real soon ya.miismiis.lovebaby tons.

baby,eu're my toxic.
ii fall inLOVE wif e dj.
(2.33pm)

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♥ Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Tis wholeweek ii realiix didn't hv a gdslp at all dun even noe y even td thurs ii cant gt2slpwelx.sigh.seriiously realiix dunno wat's gg wroniix iin mybody.hopinx tt nth goes wroniix then.sigh..been feeliinx soso tired yet ii culdn't slp.ytd wokeup at 7am then td moreearly 6iin e morniinx.omg can sum1telx miie wat's gg on wif miie?ii've been thiinkiinx alot tis few daes yet ii dun even noe wat ehell am ii thiinkiinx abt.

c wat ii mean?
1st:iis der sumthiinx wroniix wif miie?
2nd:wat's wroniix wif mybody?
3th:do ii need2c adoc?
4th:y am ii thiinkiinx somuch yet ii,myself dun even noe wat iim thiinkiinx?
5th:do ii need2take sleepinx pills?
6th:ii thiink ii shldn't anyhow take med cos my body wasn't gd/stroniix enough.
7th:wat shld ii do2myself?
8th:AM II UNDER DEPRESSION AGAIIN?
?????????????????

gosh.can sum1 telx miie wat's gg wroniix wif miie?

anywaiix now ii onli hope tiime can move faste so tt ii can faste do thiings.cant waiit2go chalet nd meetup wif baby nd my XZB.love.

ii fall iinLOVE wif e DJ.
(7.39am)

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♥ Monday, June 23, 2008

Sigh.cant gt2slp tis fewdaes dunno y.keep wakiinxup yet dunno y lo.iidiot.td wokeup super early la liikx730am then ii totally cant slp at all.argh........
Anywaiix at arund755am sms XZB nd baby2wish dem fer their td competition.hahas.mus jiayou jiayou ah.though iis realiix stress butt stiilx nomatter wat euguys stiilx hv2do urbest iin iit k=))

omg,cant waiit2go charlet la.omgomgomg thurs fastefastefaste come so tt we all can hv fun tgt iisn't iit?hahas.ii realiix cant waiit2meetup wif e rest agaiin.so miis dem la.

Ytd ask mama whether canstay overnite not cos onli 2d1n plus iis a LAST class out-iinx so iirealiix wan spend those daes wif dem butt then mama say can go butt cannot stay cos of wathappen lasttiime iin st.john island.iiunderstan tt everythiinx she do she mean miie welx nd iiunderstan she dunwan miie2become drunk liikx b4 nd ii realiix beg her2allowmiie2stay nd promise tt ii wont drink nd ii realiix mean iit iiWON'T DRINK.welx after tt she allow la butt ii realiix hv2guaiguai lo.hahas.tks mama.

td vguai lo hlp mymaid do e chill thiingy cos stay h realiix vv super bored la wan rot le.argh..........
Tis few daes haven been eatiinx much dunno y.butt tt's oso gd la can slimdown.hahas.haya say ii slimdown lo.then ii oso realise tt myface became smallier.hahas.happiixhappiix=))

weeeeeee~~~~~~~~~

babybaby,jiayou fer ur competition k though iineed eu're realiix suffer-iinx butt stiilx eu've2do urbest iin everythiinx k.ii'll oways support eu de.love eu.

xzb,eu oso mus jiayou k.oways do urbest iin everythiinx k.ii'll oways support eu iin everythiinx de.after tiis competition then eu can relax nd goout wif us le.then we can goplay liikx siao le.hahas.cheers ya.miismiis love.

omg cant waiit fer thurs.
Love eu ppl.
DANCING IIS MYLIFE.

love baby tons.
(1.47pm)

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♥ Sunday, June 22, 2008

Ii've nv iintend2write anythiinx td.butt after wat iisaw jusnow ii noe ii gt2wriite iit down nd iit's aMUS if not ii'll nv noe who ii shld say2.

welx iin e afternoon ahliang cor2 ask miie whether wan meet dem at plaza nd iitold hiim ii'll gt back2him nd well ii did butt tt's was liikx hrs ltr after ii had myshower nd decided2go downstair nd buydinner.hahas.

anywaiix ii meet ahliang,qijie nd weekia at plaza gardens after siting der fer 20mins iihad decide2buy mydinner nd so those guys tag along wif miie nd gues wat when iim wokiinx down ii exactly SAW john ong jianyou wokiinx iin2plaza wif hiis bro nd gf nd seriiously at tt vmoment iim iin ashock nd ii totally had no idea y.iit seen2b agest seen ii last met hiim nd ii rmb e lasttiime when ii saw hiim was when iim at DXO nd noe wat,ii nv believ ii would c hiim agaiin so now eu ppl would exactly noe how iifeel at tt vmoment when ii saw hiim.iit's not e matter whether iiuse2LOVE hiim not iis jus tt ii realiix dunbeliev iiSAW hiim agaiin.
anywaiix gues wat.argh......e gf exactly wear omost e same smiie.black top nd pants nd a TOTALLY SAME SLIPPER.iim liikx omgomgomg.ii told qijie abt e past ii had wif hiim nd then he saw john's gf nd say"walao her clothes gt heart share then ur clothes oso hv ah jus tt her heart share not s big s ur le.hahas.faste c faste c same lo.hahas."nd iim liikx wat e.realiix so badluck tt we both exactly wear e same clothes?butt after ii saw her clothes ii let out a wow lucky.cos her clothes exactly wrote ii love passion nd mine wrote ii love my gf omg c wat ii mean?iis god realiix playiinx a game?

ii noe thiings ar not e same s b4 cos we both had carriix on ourlife nd both of us had sum1 iin mind.iis true tt ii had 4gt hiim butt ii'll nv 4gt e important part eu once play iim mylife.
tks alot fer teach-iinx miie maniix thiings iin life nd iim nolonger s navie s b4.tks.

Gd luck iin army ya nd last long wif ur ger=))

baby,dunworriix those wiilx not affect our r/s cos ii stiilx LOVE eu tons.muacks.
(8.45pm)

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♥ Saturday, June 21, 2008

Wakeup at10.15am tismorniinx had mybreakfast then took med then wen2slp agaiin.sosotired la.wakeup at2.45pm.had somuch dreams tt make miie sotired.hahas.

anywaiix ltr iin e lateafternoon wiilx b gg irene's jiejie's h fer BBQ so ii gues ii had2prepare liikx realsoon.hahas.butt le seriiously had noenergy2go pongpong la.wan die le.
Sigh.stop here then gobusiix le.

miis baby tonstons.muacks.
(3.20pm)

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♥ Friday, June 20, 2008

Dear dairy,
omg wokeup at715am td then faste prepare nd head2wards je2meet gerger at830am then we head2wards cityhall cos need report2fairmont at9.45 butt we reach abiit early liikx9.hahas.
We wen2 BK2hv sum drinks then tiilx 940 then go2e HR2signpaper.
Stay iin der fer45mins nd leave gerger alone fer45mins omg feel sobad la.

sumtiime iidoes wonder does iit matter which hotel iim gg iin2now?seriiously iit nolonger matter liikx b4.iit onli matter how ii keep those frenship gg iisn't iit?

anywaiix after sign-iinx epaper then we head2wards DBS2open a newaccount.then we wok awhile nd iisaw my outlet tt iim gg2.o ya4gt say iim gg2plaza market cafe mostly on buffer.

after everythiinx miie nd gerger head2wards skl2look fer my XZB nd mybaby.omg gerger nd ii were liikx runningaway from teacher cos we were liikx weariinx h-tee.hahas.so we behave liikx aidiot la.
Reach h arund3then had lunch then go2bed wokeup at6.10pm butt stiilx feeliinx vvweak.omg wan die le lo.

anywaiix stop here then.
Realiix miis myBABY nd myXZB.
Meetup real soon agaiin ya.

muacks.
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♥ Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Sian lo tiis fewdaes stay at h nd rot nth much2do.sigh......wan faste goout nd meet my baby,my XZB nd my sweetard.miis eu guys sosomuch.

anywaiix guys do tkc k ii'll try2meet eu guys iif can k.excusemiie iif ii cant meet ur.sorriix.

baby,eu're myTOXIC,my everythiinx tt ii yearn fer.eu complete those puzzle iin mylife.love eu.170508 story goes on.
(2.50pm)

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♥ Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Welx 1st let miie update wathappen ytd cos ytd totally notiime2update so here ii am td=))anywaiix ytd wokeup by mommy(xiang jun)'s sms2ask miie whether diid fullation cor miie ndstuff.after iim more clear iicor dem2ask abt e interview thiings nd iit was liikx10plus nd dey say ya pls come fer e interview at12then iim liikx omg wher do ii've etiime2prepare nd gt der?butt stiilx iirush down ofcos,cos iinoe iishldn't blate fer myinterview.welx,iitry2look4aformal clothes fer myinterview butt noe wat iidun evenhv aformal clothes la.diediedie.so iiexactly ask dd2hlpmiie wif myclothes nd she did she make miiedress vformal iisn't tt vswt of her=))anywaiix iicor her accmiie der butt wif solil oftiime she say y dun wecab down iim liikx anythiinx.anywaiix reach der arund12.03omg am iilate?welx no.hahas.cos iionli hv myinterview at omost1 then waiited fer feli nd mommy2fiiniish then gooff welx miie nd ddhead2bugis2hv ourlunch at sakae cos we haven hadourbreakfast.sohungry la then metup wif baby oso.miishiim lo.after eatiinx nd shop-iinx awhiile baby gt2go2work.sigh.though can acc baby tiilx latelate.anywaiix after tt wen2look fer my XZB,XZB's mom,fivth nd cas at fareast awhile onli then iiwen2cityhall wif fivth nd cas butt xzb nd xzb.s mom goh.hahas.after tt reach h arund11 let mama scold nd scold lo cos didn't telx her say we'll b reach-iinx h late.

can ii noe wat's e diiff btw she has hermom nd eu're under mycare?does tt mean iicant bliikx any otherkids outder?y nd y nd y?iim18 eu noe18iim nolonger those young kids iin e past eu understan.iiwan2b treated liikx a adult nd not akids eu gtmiie.iim nolonger akids iim18.pls nd pls nd pls.iim18.sigh.duntelx abt eunhappiixpart la.

telx abt td.td iis miie nd baby's anni.hahas.butt vsad iis cant gt2celebration wif baby.sigh.sosorriix baby.ii'll try2celebration wif eu iif can k.sorriix.nth much td onli iin e afternoon wen2 7th siis's h.
Sigh.cant gt2go2sweetard jena's h.hate iit la.miis those daes iin her h.

hahas.my XZB,sms miie nd telx miie say she brough sumthiinx fermiie tt's vswt of her iisn't iit.lovelove.meetup real soon ya.

iiMIIS mybaby,my sweetard nd oso my XZB.
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♥ Friday, June 13, 2008

Due2blog prob pass fewdaes didn't update myblog excusemiie fer iit.

iistare at esky nd ask those ques wher ii oways ask myself can iiturn back e tiime?cos ii miis mommy sosomuch.iit's been solong seen eu last appear iin mydream nd ii realiix start2wonder how hveu been down der.dun eumiis miie?iif yes y didn't eu appear iin mydream?ii miis eu sosomuch ar eu aware of iit?ii miis those dae wher we oways go westmall nd shop nd wont gtbored of eplace.ii miis gg shop&save wif eu wher ii'll endup carriix omost all estuff so tt eu wont hv2suffer.mommy,iiMIIS eu nd ii realiixrealiix do.would eu jusappear iin mydreams agaiin?
mommy,would eu stiilx bother abtmiie,
would eu stiilx care abtmiie?
Would eu stiilx love miie?
Would eu stiilx thiink ofmiie?
Mommy,ii oways feel urexist beside miie butt iis tt all true?
Iif yes were eu letmiie noe?
Mommy,Ii wan2lead alife wher eu were oways here bymyside.
Wher thiings as moreeasy then now.
Wher iiculd tok2eu more open sumtiime.mommy,do eu noe howmuch ii wan eu bymyside?mommy,eu've crave ur imagine iin myheart nd iit stay der4EVA.

mommy,iiMIISeu sosomuch were eu appear iin mydream agaiin.

iiLOVEeu tons.
Deeply rmb by ur beloved daughter.
(2.24pm)

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♥ Wednesday, June 11, 2008

urLADY.

jerilin.

aiiyo nth much2do td la jus stay h nd rot.hahas.
sian lo.
sigh dunwan thiink somuch le ii gt2learn2 let thiings go liikx how iit shld b tt's no pnt thiinkiinx somuch abt iit mayb tiis life.
sigh.

anywaiix nth much2 update la.

miis miie bf nd my XZB.go out realsoon k.
lovelove.

iiLOVE my XZB.

e fun tiime we had tgt.

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♥ Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Meet baby at8butt he was late cos he though ii was meetiinx hiim at9 so nvm ii meet hiim at je lastcabin then go skl-busstop der meet my XZB at 845.acc baby tiilx 930 then miie nd myXZB go bukitgombak2hvbreakfast.we wok rund somaniix coffee-shop jus2find e2piid you-ta(hope ii spell correctly)omg endup make both of us sohungry.hahas.order pretty muchfood la then make both of us superfull la.after breakfast XZB wante2go lot1 2shop nd so we did.wen der shopshop nd playplay.hahas.1plus gt2faste go back skl cos XZB gt WSC.so acc her back2skl nd oso2waiit fer dem.omg waiited fer 2hrsplus fer dem so fer e tiime beiinx iiwen2 access-room2check on myfrenstes.after dey end well iit's tiime2go h butt then stomachhungry la sobaby say goplaza buy sum snack2eat nd so ii tag along.hahas.anywaiix reach h at6.15.omg late.anywaiix realiix enjoy myself td.
Lovelove.

:Iim stiilx vconfuse over those feeliinx iin miie.ii though eu culd jus gtout nd weboth wiilx start ourlife.nd yes iit was wat ii expected iit2b.butt after sumtiime iirealise tiis wasn't how iifeel at all.though ii had start alife w/o eu butt after sumtiime iirealise eu stiilx hold thosespare iin myheart jus howmuch iit iis?ii dunno.ii dunwan those2happen cos iinoe iit wiilx nv bfair2any of us.butt jus how shld ii settledown myfeeliinx when thiings were iin amess?
Dun let miie noe howeu feeliinx.
Dun let miie noe howeu thiink.
Dun let miie noe how hurt eu were.
Cos ii cant afford2lose e nextgdguy.

Stop contactiinx miie wiilx eu?

ND PPLOUT DER WIILX EU PPL JUSSTOP SAYIINX ABT HIISNAME COS II DUNWAN2HEAR ABT IIT.

Sorriix ii noe iim selfish over maniix thiings now butt iim stiilx learniinx2let go butt jus how shld iido iit when he keep contactiinx miie?sigh.

iiHATEeu.
Stop everythiinx wiilx eu?

lost&confuse.

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♥ Sunday, June 8, 2008

How shld ii descried myfeeliinx now?
Lost,confuse,paiin,numb or wat soeva?
Gues iit's non of e above cos ii duneven noe.
Ii onli feel v2piid,feel liikx criinxiinx out.omg ii realiix dunno mayb mix ofeverythiinx.

Td wen2hilton fer interview der were9person 6of our-own ppl nd e other3were from othercountry.
After e interview e human-resource lady miss cindy came iin2e room nd say who was beiinx choose nd stuff.nd gues wat myname were short-listed.so wat does tt mean does tt mean ii've2waiit agaiin or does tt mean ii dunhv a place iin iit?

Nvm.ii hold back mytears b stroniix iinfront ofeverybody butt juswat e hell do iirealiix wan?
2let outmyfeeliinx or stay stroniix??? Jus wat shld ii b doiinx.sumhow iim tired of stayiinxstroniix cos ii noe ii cant do iit fer long.
Mayb ii didn't dowelx iin myinterview jusnow deal2nervous.imagine how2piid am ii la jus asimple iinterview nd ii cant dowelx fer wat.

holdiinx back mytears2e vlastmin nd ii cant hold iit anymore nd now iiburst out.
Iim lost nd sosoconfuse now.
Mr.liew say tis e lasthotel oread.wat iif ii realiix didn't gt iin?wat iif nootherhotel wanmiie.der ar so maniix wat iif.sigh.

=ESPECIALLY TKS 2:
*:baby fer beiinx bymyside when iim feeliinx vdown butt sorriix tt ii keptthiings2myself cos ii realiix dunwan eu2worriix abtmiie.butt stiilx tks baby eu're e most wonderfully bf.
2my beloved XZB,tks fer e care nd console tismorniinx mayb ii needmore tiime2sort out myfeeliinx cos ii cant hlp butt feeliinx v2piid of myself fer not doiinx welx iin e interview jusnow.butt tks fer all e concern.eu're my superLOVE nd nobody can REPLACE eu.lovelove.XZB,fer life.*

=if sum1 culd hlpmiie2sort out myfeeliinx.=
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Wokeup at10.10am td so tired la.sigh.wokeup le do e same thiings washup,eat mybreakfast then watchtv.nth much td.wen2swim at arund3plus nd end at 5cos need go upstair hlp2briinx those thiings down2clubhouse.
Welx celebration father'sdae early cos nextweek3th siis gg oversea.tt's y.anywaiix had lots offun la dey playgames then 3th jiefu sofunniix la let ppl touch hiis stomach.hahas.dots.reach h arund 10.35pm.sotired lo.

anywaiix gg interview tml at hilton.welx gues ii stiilx hv2face e fact tt iim not iin ferswiss.sigh.anywaiix wishmiie luck tml man.

:baby,iiMIISeu sosomuch wor hope tt tml faste come so tt ii can c hiim.love mybaby tons.tkc.miismiis.
(11.19pm)

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8:09 AM

♥ Saturday, June 7, 2008

Wokeup at 835am la omg soearly lo butt onli leave h at 945 liikx tt lo.sian.ii onli took liikx15mins 2prepare la then wake miieup soearly oso dunno fer wat lo.craziix.
Anywaiix reach aunt jenny's h liikx 10am.7th jie dye herhair1st then mama then reachmiie butt onli cut la.omg ii waiited liikx solong la.sian.after cuttiinx hair we head2wards shengsiong2buy fer tmlevent tt's y.hahas.reach shengsiong arund 1plus then wen2hv lunch sohungry la.kuku.buy thiings tiilx 3plus arund4 then reach h omg la sotired lo.
Anywaiix reach h nd starthlpiinx out tiilx 5plus omost6then can rest nd watchtv.hahas.exactly nth much la td.jus liikx tt lo.jus tt feeliinx vtired.

IiMIIS ggout la.kuku wan goclub wif baby td lo butt cant sigh T.T.

anywaiix iiMIIS myGF tons.
Muacks.
(9.09pm)

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5:29 AM

♥ Friday, June 6, 2008

Argh........
Accidently delete e1st wan nd now ii've2 re-type everythiinx agaiin.kuku.

anywaiix here mystory goes agaiin:
wokeup at640am nd wen2prepare then straigh wen2boonlay2look4baby metup wifbaby at 745am then wen2buybreakfast then wen2"prime"2buy juices nd ice-cream nd ofcos baby scoldmiie cos hesay early iin emorniinx eat wat ice-cream.hahas.butt stiilx endup baby stiilx brough fermiie la liikx duh.hahas.dots.then head2baby's h.
Anywaiix leave baby's h at1150am wen2meetup wif my XZB waiited fer her fer atleast 20mins orso butt stiilx iit wasn't tt bored cos were waiitiinx ferXZB baby nd ii were takiinx piic liikx mad la 2piid plus funniix piic.hahas.
Anywaiix reach vivo at arund12plus then waiit fer jeremy2arrival then we wen2watch kunfupande.hahas.

Omg e show sososo superfunniix la.cant stop laughiinx.hahas.laugh tiilx ii keep coughiinx lo.welx iit's worth watchiinx lo if can iisure wiilx gowatch agaiin lo.
Anywaiix after eshow over we wen2slack arund iin vivo then headed h sigh realiix hope ii can spend mytiime wif myBABY nd myXZB dey all la.butt cant.sigh.

*omg,iiMIISclubbiinx la,iirealiix wan dance inedancefloor tiilx mymind goempty nd then wont hv2thiink ofanythiinx la.rmb promise myXZB tt we ggclub tgt.cant waiit fer edae2come lo butt pls dunask gerger man iirealiix dunwan her2spoilt mynite ontt dae la.omg godblessmiie.*

anywaiix reach h at5.40pm omg soglad tt mama didn't even hvachance2ask miie anythiinx cos after iireach h faste change nd wen2swim le.hahas.wow haven been swimmiinx fer solong after swimmiinx sosotired lo wan die le.hahas.

*sigh.wasn't beiinxchoose by swiss omg y man mon need gohilton interview omg ii dunwan la nd iimean iit ii realiix dunwan ii onli wan swiss la.y do dey onli pick those ppl who ar oways late fer skl ndstuff ar dey dumb or wroniix iin theirmind?omg.argh.dunwan tokabt iit anymore*

td realiix feeliinx vtired.gg orhorh soon.
Miis myBABY nd myXZB iit's oways niice ggout wif dem opls moreoutiinx pls.

loveeu ppl sosomuch.tkc.

baby,eu're myTOXIC.
(11.23pm).

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7:39 AM

♥ Thursday, June 5, 2008

Welx tiis morniinx wokeup specially early at630am cos iintend2gv MYBABY a surprise by gg2boonlay ITC2waiit fer hiim nd oso2acc baby2skl.hahas.
Reach boonlay ITC at 740am wow soearly la baby onli leave h liikx 805am nd ii was liikx waiitiinx fer hiim iin ITC jus2gv hiim a suprise la nd iim liikx a iidiot lookiinx arund jus2watchout fer hiim.
Dun ii look liikx a iidiot?
Butt welx ii shld stiilx say iit's all worth iit cos ii noe baby gg love e suprise.
After ii saw baby iirush2scary hiim then he gt ashock la nd welx he omost kiilxmiie la.hahas.dots.butt stiilx can telx he's realiix happiix nd suprise abt iit.
Welx baby iiLOVEeu nd oso LOVE2gv eu a suprise.hahas.bleahx........

anywaiix after sendiinx baby2je ii change mytrain nd wen2meet myXZB at AMK.after she arrived we head2wards cine.waiited ferdem at control-station1st nd s usual dey arLATE nd eu noe liikx LATE.dey hv nv fail2turnup late.argh............

anywaiix after tt we head2wards KBOX nd start2sing welx shldn't iit b a happiix thiings butt y thiings doesn't seen tiis waiix sigh y iis gerger oways pulliinx those longface or shld ii sayBLACKFACE?welx eu'll hate iit wheneva eu c those face of hers la.omg liikx pls la.argh......anywaiix we from11sing tiilx arund3then wen2HMV2shop awhiile then ii headed h.sian so early go h do nth.idiot reach h at arund 505pm.

end of td's story.

*:welx had abiit of quarrel wif baby or shld ii say ii oways wanted thiings2go mywaiix nd ii oways wanted hiim2let miie b e1st2noe everythiinx nd eu noe ii mean liikx EVERYTHIINX.iiHATE beiinx e last2noe abt iit nd iiMEAN iit ii realiix hate iit lots butt y didn't eu telx miie iis iit realiix sohard jus fer eu2say?hv ii been expectiinx much from eu?ii noe ii shldn't b screamiinx at eu iin efone butt ii cant stand wat eu diid by not teliinx miie abt iit nd ii seen liikx afool beiinx elast2noe.
Baby,eu say eu'll take notice on tiis nd pls mark urwords cos iiHATEliar.

baby,ii stiilx love eu butt gvmiie tiime2calm myself down do tkc of urself k.*

miis nd love ur babypiggy.
(9.02pm)

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5:17 AM

♥ Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Dear dairy,
Welx wokeup at 10.10am td sosotired tt,ii slept though e wholenite.welx stiilx e same wokeup iin e morniinx washup then eat myBreakfast then watchtv tiilx atnite non-stop.hahas.welx nth much2do either sowatchtv nd oso rest at h la.

iiMIIS those skl-daes.
Miis beiinx iin amber miis everydae.
Tiime-flys iit's been 1nd a hafyr nd soon we're gg4 IA.welx iit's sosofast tt iicant even beliiev iit.ii miis those olddaes iin-skl ii miis everythiinx abt iit.miis beiinx wif my gersfren,miis chattiinx wif daddy nd those fun wehad tgt.
Rmb those daes tt he oways disturb us nd w/o fail he'll find fault at miie omost EVERYDAE.
Argh............
Butt though der ar somuch ups nd down stiilx we miis those daes iisn't iit?sigh.cant imagine how wiilx life b iin IA.

:had achat wif 6th siis iin mama'sroom tis afternoon.imagine mama has been telliinx all her daughter abt my dirtypast nd those were e past nd eu noe ii mean PAST.ii nv even wan tok abt iit agaiin nd ii mean NV AGAIIN.butt y mus dey go findout mypast nd say iit2others?cant dey jus keep thiings2demselves?y mus all tis happen ii omost tears-out when she told miie abt iit imagine wher ur family-members noe abt ur dirty past jus how wiilx eu feel?
*Cant dey gv miie achances2change nd look at miie iin a diiff view?*

iim so LOST&CONFUSE.
Culd Sum1 jus hlpmiie2understan miie.

sigh.

+baby,iiLOVEeu tons do tkc of urself when workiinx.+
(9.58pm)

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6:23 AM

♥ Tuesday, June 3, 2008

dear dairy,

td soso tiired lo taken 2exampaper others take1 nd ii take2idiot.imagine how2piid iim la my beverage fail fer liikx 2tiimes la.
ARGH...............
welx plsplspls pray hard tt ii dun fail agaiin tis time plsplspls.
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plsplspls man.

anywaiix td soso tiired lo stiilx not enough slp agaiin wan die le.
end everythiinx at 12 then head2 queenways fer lunch nd oso2check fer e class t thingy after tt everybody headed h butt iit's stiilx early so baby nd miie intend2 go bukitpanjangplaza2shopshop awhiile then after tt we wen underblock2sit 2finishup e ice-cream tt baby brough then after tt go h reach h arund 5.40pm.hahas god bless miie my aunt didnt ask any ques.hahas.dots.
welx baby eu're v cariinx 2wards miie cos when eu noe iim not feeliinx welx eu even bother 2cook barley fer miie.
baby,iiLOVEeu lots la.

sigh soso tiired didn't hv even enough slp at all hmmmm 2nite mus slp early lo.
yawn tiiredtiired.

2baby:
baby,ii'll LOVE eu.
as long s ii can dream,
s long s ii can thiink,
s long s ii've a MEMORY...
ii'll LOVE eu.

s long s ii've eyes to c nd ears to hear nd lips 2speak..
ii'll LOVE eu..

s long s ii've a HEART to feel,
a soul stirring within miie,
an imagination to hold eu..
ii'll LOVE eu.

s long s der is tiime,
s long s der is LOVE,
s long s der is EU,
nd s long s ii've a breath2speak ur name..
ii'll LOVE eu.
bcos ii loveeu more than anythiinx in tis world.

ii LOVE eu nd tt's a FATE.
(9.30pm)

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6:01 AM

♥ Monday, June 2, 2008

Dear dairy,
Td busiix wif all e study.sigh.wan die le.lastnite slept at2then wokeup at730.omg liikx not enoughslp la sotired then wen2meet baby at lrt station at8then wen2meet myXZB ferbreakfast.
Hahas.dots.

omg xiaohui told miie tt iim not in aplace at swiss imagine howsad ii'm.seriiously ii had nomood2do anythiinx from e tiime iiheard wat xiaohui told miie.
Sigh.....
Realiixrealiix vsad ii dunwan go in2otherhotel other then swiss.omgomgomg iit's drivinx miie realmad.
Imagine howmuch ii wan enter swiss fer attachment tt ii omost tearsout infront of everybody butt yet ii noe ii had2hold back mytears.iit's sohard2 do tt butt ii manage2do iit.

Baby,tks fer stayiinx besiide miie when iiexactly need eu emost.sorriix if ii throw tantrum at eu iirealiix diidn't mean iit.sorriixbaby sosorriix abt it.it's all started abt e swiss thiingy.sorriix baby.

2myself:
wiilx ii jusstop beiinx soselfish ii had start mylife nd y would ii let hiim start hiis2.everythiinx hascome2an end.iit's all bygones wiilx ii.face e fate wiilx ii.face iit.ii cant oways thiink ttthiings wiilx go ewaiix ii oways though iit wiilx.iit's tiime he start hiis life nd iit's tiime ii4gt hiim totally.bygones ar jus bygones.sumthiinx wont bnice if ii hold on2iit agaiin cos ii started those mess1st der's nopnt tryiinx hard2clear thiingsup wher thiings ar liikx tt.face iit JERILIN NEO XINYI iit wont go ewaiix eu wan,eu lead urlife nd he lead hiis understan.dun tryhard2clear those mess when eu had exactly started urlife w/o hiim.gt iit.

baby,sorriix4everythiinx ii done butt stiilx eu're my BIGGEST TOXIC.
Promise 2gt hiim out of mylife.

baby,eu're my1nd onli.
Loveeu tons.
(12.31am)

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